I had a nightmare last night.  I just remember people dying and being in a room full of water waiting for it either to drain or somehow to call 911 to get rescued.  I was stuck floating in this room, and other people were in there too.  I was hanging onto Kyle’s back and we were the last two alive.  I think everyone else that had been trapped in there died and were floating in the water around us.  Including this little baby cause I remember wanting to scream when I floated over by her.  I remember asking Kyle what we should do as soon as we got rescued.  I wanted to go over the steps.  I remember saying we’re going to call 911, get rescued, go home, and eat.  I remember being so hungry cause I guess we had been stuck in there for so long.  I guess at some point before everyone had died there was a bad guy one of the rooms along the hall way that was shooting at everyone or something, so Kyle and I hid out until he died.  It was such a morbid dream and I woke up frozen.  It really freaked me out.  I don’t want to think about it anymore, it’s getting me all worked up just retyping it all.

This first week has been interesting.  I’m already really behind on work for all my classes, and it’s only Saturday.  I have so much reading to do for bio, and two chapters worth of homework to do for ochem, and then reading for my fem class.  I’m taking another one this quarter.  This time it’s the intro to fem studies class, and it’s pretty intense.  I feel so lost when my professor lectures cause I’m just the token science major who decided to take this of all classes for a GE.  It’ll be interesting to see how everything pans out this quarter.  I like all of my classes at least, it’s just going to be terribly busy.  Maybe this will help the quarter go by faster!  Although the first day back was really difficult for me, Tuesday and the rest of the week was much better.  There were a couple slip ups where I just felt defeated, but I haven’t really cried since Monday so that’s a good thing.  I remember previous quarters I would be depressed for like a week, so this is much better.  Kyle is coming up next weekend too!  I’m trying to plan everything out so our visits are all somewhat evenly spaced.  I dunno what it is, but it seems like each quarter makes me want to not be here even more.  The nightmare I just had made me want to go home.  What if something were to happen to my parents or Kyle while I was up here?  I mean there is a way for me to get home now that my car is up here with me, but it’s still a 7 hour drive to get to them.  Maybe next year will be better.  I think I’ve found a good group of people to live with next year so maybe that will help me feel less alone.  The dorms make you so secluded from everyone else.  Two years of this is too much.  I can’t wait until I can just cook my own food.  I’ve been avoiding the dining hall so much this quarter.  It’s just so hard to go back after being home for a month and eating so much good homecooked food.  I’m going grocery shopping this weekend to stock up on food I can just make in my room.  So far the main staple in my diet has been Special K bars, but I need some real substance.  I’m thinking I’ll buy those little Campbell’s soups and some bread for sandwiches and milk for cereal.  

I can’t wait to be done with this quarter though.  Even though the weather has been so wonderful, there’s still something about winter quarter that makes it a drag.  Spring just feels so much more magical because summer is that close.  We’ll see what happens though.  It’s been kind of lonely so far, but I think work will keep me busy.  Which I should go get started on.  I just want to watch football all daaaayyy..  Oh well.