I’ve figured it out.

I suffer from emetophobia.  I never knew there was a name.  All of this applies to me, well, except the mentally disabled part.  But it used to be a huge part of why I never wanted to be pregnant ever in my life (it’s still a slight part of the reason…), and it’s why I hardly eat.  I obsess over cleanliness and controlling what I eat to prevent all possibility of throwing up.  And I used to be so terrified about going out to eat!  I would avoid going to restaurants with my parents in any way that I could.  And I’m really particular about the fast food that I eat now.  It’s crazy that this actually has a name, and the fact that there’s a wiki article about the same shit that I feel, incredible.  It makes sense now where my OCD comes from. 

I’m clearly not alone.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emetophobia

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